Amber Heard is scared of potentially being sued again by her ex-husband Johnny Depp- indeed as she admits to still loving him.
That was disclosed in the alternate portion of Heard’s exclusive interview with NBC News’ Savannah Guthrie, Heard’s first since the high- profile vilification trial between her and Depp.
The actress articulated” absolutely” when Gutherie questioned her if, after everything, as she articulated in court during their vilification trial, she” still has love” for Depp.
” I love him. I loved him with all my heart,” Heard said.” And I tried the best I could to make a deeply shattered relationship work and I couldn’t.”
” I’ve no bad feelings or ill will towards him at all,” she added.” I feel that might be tough to understand or it might be really easy to understand if you’ve just ever loved anyone.”
In part one of the interview which aired Tuesday, Heard said she believed” the vast majority of this ordeal was played out on social media” and vocalized of the vitriol channeled at her by backers of Depp.
She reflected further on the public perception about her in the segment Wednesday, after Gutherie inquired Heard about a text in which Depp vowed” complete universal humiliation” for her.
” I am not a good victim, I get it,” she said.” I am not a likeable victim, I am not a perfect victim. But when I testified I inquired the jury to see me and hear his own words which is a pledge to do this.”
Depp sued Heard for $50 million, professing she defamed him in a 2018 Washington Post op- ed in which she wrote about her experience with domestic violence, though he wasn’t mentioned by name.
She countersued him for$ 100 million and they both were found liable for vilification, though the jury rewarded significantly further damages to Depp.
Heard told Guthrie she” took for granted what I assumed was my right to speak” and now is nervous to speak out.
” I am afraid that no matter what I do, no matter what I say or how I say it, every step that I take will present another occasion for this kind of silencing,” Heard said in response to Guthrie asking if she had concerns that Depp could sue her afresh in the future.” Which is what I guess a vilification lawsuit is meant to do to take your voice.”
As for the” Aquaman” star’s future, she said she can now concentrate on being a full- time mommy to her one- year-old daughter.
The interview airs Friday at 8p.m. EST on” Dateline,” with a run-through available to stream Thursday on Peacock.