Amber Heard has spoken out about everything from the public’s treatment of her during her vilification trial withex-husband Johnny Depp to whether she was reciting the truth about his alleged abuse.
Heard sat down for an exclusive interview, her first, with NBC News’ Savannah Guthrie, a portion of which aired on” Today” Tuesday.
The actress didn’t bolster down from her claims that Depp had physically and emotionally bullied her during their matrimony.
” To my dying day, I’ll stand by every word of my testimony,” she told Guthrie.
Heard said she was also mindful of the hostile light the case beamed on both her and herex-husband.
” I would not blame the median person for looking at this and how it’s been covered and seeing it as Hollywood brats at their worst,” she told Guthrie.” But what people do not understand is it’s actually so much bigger than that.”
Heard said she believed” the vast majority of this trial was played out on social media,” referencing the numerous memes and spoofs of the court case which spread on TikTok and other platforms. She said the jury was” not exempt” to those less- than- flattering descriptions of her.
” I suppose even the most well- intentioned juror, it would have been impossible to elude this,” she said.
Guthrie pushed Heard on whether she had abused Depp after the” Aquaman” star said she never started a physical scuffle with Depp despite audio played during the trial, which appeared to show she had.
Guthrie pointed out that Heard’s alleged aggression was” in black and white” via a court transcription.
” As I testified on the stand about this, is that when your life is at risk, not only will you take the blame for things that you should not take the blame for,” she said.” But when you’re in an abusive dynamic psychologically, emotionally and physically, you do not have the resources that, say, you or I do with the luxury of saying,’ Hey this is black or white’ because it’s anything but when you are living in it.”
Heard admitted that she” did do and say horrible things throughout my relationship,”
” I conducted in horrible, almost unrecognizable to myself ways,” she said.” I’ve so much remorse.”
Depp had sued hisex-wife for$ 50 million, professing she defamed him in a 2018 Washington Post op- ed in which she wrote about her experience with domestic violence.
Depp wasn’t referred to by name in Heard’s piece, but he said it cost him work. Heard countersued him for$ 100 million.
Both Heard and Depp were found liable for vilification in dueling lawsuits against each other. The jury, still, awarded significantly further damages to Depp.
Heard said during her interview that in the days leading up to the trial she had to walk by blocks of Depp backers on her way to court, holding signs that disparaged her with expressions that included” Death to Amber.”
The courtroom was packed with” vocal, amped ” fans of Depp’s” Pirates of the Caribbean” character, she said.
” This was the most humiliating and horrible thing I’ve ever been through,” Heard said.” I’ve never felt more removed from my own humanity. I felt lower than human.”
Heard said she believes the verdict may have been different had” really important pieces of evidence” from a UK libel case Depp lost in 2020 against a British tabloid– that called him a” wifey beater”– been allowed to be submitted in her case.
When asked if she supposed Depp’s attorneys were better than hers, Heard said his attorneys” did a better job of throwing off the jury from the real issues.”
Heard’s team has said they intend to appeal the verdict.
Guthrie said she interviewed Heard further than a week after the trial ended.
Prior to launching into an earlier interview with two of Depp’s attorneys, Benjamin Chew and Camille Vasquez, Guthrie exposed that her hubby, public relations consultant Michael Feldman, had handed consulting services for Depp and his team, but not in connection to her interview.